i don't wanna be here!
it's okay! i'm not actually dead.
not yet, anyways. i expect to die in front of a computer, so i'm sure i'll be able to update you all.

my name is micah, some people call me mikey. i'm an 18 year old boy from new zealand. currently, i'm still in highschool. starting in 2026, i'll be studying criminology and forensic psychology.

i started this website on june the 20th of june, 2023, when i was 16. it was very ugly back then... it's very ugly right now. i was getting bullied and beat at school a shit ton, so i hid in the paint closet in the art department at lunch, and i used my newfound spare time to teach myself how to code. since i'm self taught, i don't have much technical skill. i struggle creatively too.

i've been internet addicted since i was five. i don't know how to talk to people, and i don't really like them either- it's not a cognotive thing, i'm just socially inept. i'm especially disguisted by human hands.

i like any bullshit under the hardcore umbrella. my favourite band is circa survive- i've been a fan for over 5 years now. my favourite song is house of leaves, from their 2005 debut album, juturna. i listen to a lot of scarling, me and him call it us, killwhitneydead, 7 angels 7 plagues, wecamewithbrokenteeth, cloacal kiss, and the number 12 looks like you. contrary to my emo shit, i'm an orbit, a meu, and a sone. my biases are yves, haseul, victoria, and sunny.

i love visual novels. off the top of my head, i like saya no uta. i like swan song. i like corpse party. i like togainu no chi. i really like slow damage. i like slow damage enough that i even played clean dishes. it's good! it's not as good as slow damage, but it's good. i love hundred line- last defense academy. please play it so i can get my darumi amemiya dlc. i love darumi amemiya.

i have a tattoo of a long-haired, dejected-looking angel on my right hip. my right, your left.

as you can probably discern from my... everything, i only exist online. my best friend in the world is all the way across the ocean- will! he'll have a website soon, but in the meantime, support his photography + collections here and here.

i have a personality disorder. you win a prize if you can guess which one. if you want to chat or be friends, i'm bandaid91 on discord and twitter.

why ciel? cause... i like black butler. plus, he looks cool.